rainbow baby

Wonderfully made, the birth of our rainbow baby

Well, here we are. On the other side of waiting. What do you do when you come to the end of a very long waiting season? For the past three years we were waiting. For a positive pregnancy test. For a heartbeat. For a baby to keep growing. For a hope to remain. For God to hold us. For God to answer our hearts desire. For the next prenatal appointment. For nausea to end. For sleep to come. For labor to start. For our son's first cry. 

And here we are. 

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Almost six weeks of holding, nursing, smelling, touching this new little life that God has graciously given us. And aside from the crazy hormones of postpartum, my heart feels like it's grown and healed in these weeks more than it has in the past few years. I am in awe each day and night that we have three sons. After so many months of wondering and waiting I am still in awe that he's here. 

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This morning as I was editing photos from his first couple weeks, I'm reminded of a few verses that are on my heart. 

Psalm 145:4
"One generation shall commend your works to another, and shall declare your mighty acts." 

Oh God, how I want to cry this out. Your works are MIGHTY. Even in the waiting, You are working, and I am so grateful for this. I want this verse to be what others see in my heart. 

Psalm 139:13-14
"For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well."

I can't help but look at all the little parts of our Theodore and see how he was made in secret. All those months of feeling him, I couldn't see or know how God was forming him. And he is made fearfully and wonderfully by a Creator we pray he seeks with all his heart. I pray we share the love of Christ in a very real and big way in his life and his brothers. 

What a wonderful reward children are from the Lord. My heart is full. 

 

strawberry picking at 35 weeks pregnant

Last year we went strawberry picking for the first time. It's something that I've wanted to do for quite a while, but we finally did it together as a family! It's a lot of fun seeing the boys grow and become more independent so that they can really participate in activities with us! As it turned out, we actually ended up picking at two different farms. The first was fun, but the second one, we spontaneously (somewhat) headed to on Mother's Day was our favorite. 

For Mother's Day last year we did something a little out of the ordinary. While we usually head to church every Sunday (Mother's Day being no exception), I chose to do something different for the sake of my own heart. I shared about that day here.  Spending the day with my family, was a wonderful and restful experience all around. And I LOVED the strawberry farm we visited. 

This year I really wanted to head back to that farm. God has been so gracious and with joy, we are expecting our third son. Our rainbow baby. (35 week belly below)

 

Every week we like to plan for a family activity together, so for the week before Mother's Day we chose to go strawberry picking. I realize at 35 weeks pregnant it's not a really easy feat, but I really wanted those sun ripened strawberries. Plus the home made ice-cream isn't so bad either!

The farm is about an hour north of us and it's called LCCL Strawberry Farm, in Rome. Their price is terrific to pick your own, and of course they sell strawberry ice-cream that you really have to buy after picking out in the fields.

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We picked about 11 pounds altogether, which surprisingly (even with a big pregnant belly) didn't take us that long. The boys have learned which ones are good for picking, how necessary it is to "sample" some while you pick, and which ones to leave on the stems for ripening. I'm a homeschool mom, but a natural teacher (well, Jonah more than me) so we can count this trip as a field trip, wrapped into a family day. The best! 

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Oliver is getting pretty good at using our camera! 

Oliver is getting pretty good at using our camera! 

It was a great day and we recommend this local farm to anyone in our area. The drive isn't really too bad, since it's north, and the warm sun ripened fields of strawberries are worth it! Store bought strawberries just cannot compete with taste. We have a freezer full of berries, that I'm sure will be eaten up too soon, but some wonderful memories from our day at the farm.

Every perfect gift. A story of miscarriage and healing.

I started dabbling in hand lettering at the beginning of the year. I had been growing interested in it, so Jonah gifted me with some supplies for Christmas. I had no idea if I would stick with it—because I'm creative I tend to be interested in several things at once! But to my surprise I really enjoyed it and continued to work on it regularly, to grow into my own style. 

I still have MUCH room for improvement and much to learn, but after all these months I am really loving hand lettering. So much so, that I've begun selling pieces in my etsy shop, the itsy bitsy store

Around the time I started lettering, I also started journaling, and this became such a great place of growth in my personal journey with the Lord. Scriptures, songs, quotes and words were all written down in page after page. It became such a great habit to write in prayer to the Lord, that I'd often wake up with a verse or song on my mind that I would journal about. It was a wonderful, encouraging season, rich with growth.

This past summer, Jonah and I had a great loss that we kept pretty private. We walked through a miscarriage that was terribly painful. It was a shock, as I'm sure it is to any parent, and it was heart wrenching to say goodbye to our child that we had just begun dreaming for.

Looking back I can see how much the Lord had His hand on me, on us, leading up to that season of grief. I have journals filled with so many words from Him. I am so very thankful that God sees before us and knows what is to come. He was not surprised by the grief we experienced, and He did not once leave us. As He has promised, He will never leave us or forsake us. (Hebrews 13:5)

Before our miscarriage, I had been surrounded by women who had walked down this road of grief. I had prayed for them faithfully and encouraged them with scripture as the Lord graciously gave me verses for them. Praying a certain scripture for someone is powerful and encouraging, and I love holding on to His promises this way. 

One day, not long after our miscarriage, I was praying and had an idea for a gift for one of my dear friends who was expecting her rainbow baby (a pregnancy following a loss). There are a lot of ugly feelings that come with grief and loss, and I wrestled with many of them. Thinking of this gift was something that I felt the Lord laid on my heart, as it was a difficult thing for me to even think of newborns, let alone make gifts for them. 

But I pursued it, trusting that He would be faithful to help me fulfill it if it was from Him.  

He was faithful to provide the means to fulfill this idea, and in a few weeks time I was able to create and finalize this gift, this small idea that beautifully illustrates the Father's love for us. 

It was an incredibly healing and exciting walk to follow where I felt the Lord leading, to make these little gifts using His words, His scripture, on them.

These are the gifts. 

They are onesies that have a screen print of a hand-lettered scripture I had been praying for in each recipient's life. Each belonging to a mother, each a unique story of joy, and some of grief.

For each woman that received one, I had been praying with them through their own journey in motherhood. In that prayer time I had been given these verses for each one, and I did not ever think I would be somehow giving them the scripture in this tangible way. I never expected to be on the other side of miscarriage like some of them are. But here I am. Seeing how God can bring good out of a sad, dark place. A place where I couldn't see any beauty. And He gave me this. Reminders of the past wrapped up in hope for the future. It's humbling to be shown His beauty in this way.   

If you would like a screen printed onesie with scripture made, I am adding them to my shop. What a joy it is to me to create these. Know that I will be praying that scripture over your life or the life of your child.  

Faithful is he that calleth you, who also will do it. (1 Thessalonians 5:24) 

To visit my etsy shop, you can head here: the itsy bitsy store

 

*If you would like to read more of my thoughts as we walked through miscarriage, head over here.*